A few years back I was feeling like I was unloved or always the problem for people. I am a teenager and that’s usually when most of the extreme ups and downs happen in life and so I felt like I should just gather up my things and run away, never to come back. I felt so ashamed because of all my sins and regrets, I felt like I should feel like I was loved and blessed with this wonderful family and all these different things we had, but I just wanted to stay in this place of self-pity. At that time I was folding clothes and while I was thinking of these things something caught my eye: The words ‘You belong here’. I was kind of shocked to see that and I wouldn’t have if I hadn’t folded that shirt the way I had, for the words were on the shoulder of the shirt. But being so caught up in my own emotions I thought little of it and continued folding. Then the words popped up again (we had two of the same shirt) I definitely knew that this was no coincidence and realized that it wasn’t the shirt that was saying those words, it was God, encouraging me to keep going forward, to keep running the race, to keep loving and serving even when life seemed unfair. Peace and awe came to my soul at that very minute, and so I continue on!
I was driving home from shopping for groceries on a sunny morning back in June of this year. I was listening to Shine FM like I always do, and heard a song that I hadn’t heard before! It made such a huge impact on me, that I looked it up as soon as I got home, and literally could not stop listening to it and singing it for the rest of the day, cementing the words and message in my heart! I had no idea this song was God-sent, until that very same night when my husband and I were awakened at 2:30 am by a phone call….the kind you never want to get. My brother called from the hospital in Abbotsford where he and my mom were waiting to hear from the doctors who were trying to revive my father who had been rushed to the hospital in an ambulance, unresponsive, after suffering a deadly heart attack. As I laid in bed trying to process the information I had just heard….suddenly the words to that song, the one I had listened to all day, (Peace Be Still by Hope Darst) came to me, in the painful silence, as if God Himself were whispering those very words to me…..”Peace, be still, You are here so it is well….even when my eyes can’t see, I will trust the voice that speaks Peace over me….” I was truly overwhelmed by this very tangible reminder and gift of God’s presence to me in the midst of my storm.